Re-creating my own self

I am trying to re-create myself.I am trying to attain a personality which is fantastically better than the present me. For that I am watching all my daily actions with the eyes of a vigillant critic. My every action, every interaction with someone, every spoken words, every thoughts..are all carefully scrutinized, by the Critic Me..and questioned;..are all these actions compatible with the future Me- as I want myself to be? Obviously most of them are not..and after much debate and post-mortem of the behaviour, the Critic Me and Myself come to a common ground..I learn something new..I promise to stick to the newly learnt norm of behaviour.

I consider myself lucky to know the weaknesses in me...and some of them are extremely vital. I am too sentimental; I am a very dependant person..I have to learnt to live independantly;I lack assertiveness..I tend to give way to other people- to people behind me while walking, climbing the stairs, window shopping, chasing a bus seat. I tend to think of other people more often than I think about me.Basically, my priority to myself is seriously lacking.

And then, I need to polish my social behavoiur. I need to be subtle with my words, with my behaviour. I have to bring my talents out..I know my talents well- only the problem is till day I have not really worked hard to bring it out for public display.

Come the next year, it will see a different me...a confident composed person, with a different physical appearance, different attitude and mentality towards life.

These are my 2008 commitments to myself. Bless me God..bless me with the courage to do so.
Amen.